Technology from the view of a fatty

For this past week I have not listened to any music while working out, so today I decided to take my birthday money from my sweet mother-in-law and buy an iPod shuffle. I feel like it will help give me that extra push while running and distract me from the pain. It is a great little device that looks like a stick of gum and can be toted easily for running use. I thought of songs that make me feel pumped and ready to sweat, one of them being "Hot N Cold" by Katy Perry, then I got this crazy idea...I will make a VIDEO in my heart-polka dot running outfit and do a crazy dance to Hot n' Cold for your viewing pleasure. And I did it. I know I'm crazy, but I don't regret making the video as much as I regret actually going back and watching it, you know how the video camera adds about 50 pounds, yeah it was horrific, but very, very funny. I decided my self-esteem is too fragile right now to post the video on my blog, but I will...when things get better, er, smaller. Every week or so I will dance to the same song and then make a video montage of my progress, it will be MUCH more inspiring and I can then justify showing the first part of the video to all of you, my supporters, and any other person who may come across it. I think of it as a twist on the usual "Before and after" shots, and more motivating for me because not only do I see the sheer size of my hips, but I also see how they sway to the beat. So thanks technology for motivating me, but no thanks for ripping me from the sweet solace of denial. I may buckle and show you just 10 seconds of it just so you can see what I mean, but probably not.