About two months ago I had ALMOST mastered The "Listening" techniques described in the book, "Women, Food, and God." The change was tangible and empowering--I felt great and unstoppable. I had learned to LISTEN to when my body said "STOP EATING JUNK FOOD AND FEED ME SOME FRESH THINGS FROM THE EARTH!!" Then two weeks later, I allowed myself to "bite" a little fast food. One bite, two, still no complaints from my belly, three, four, and a carton of fries and hamburger later I realized my body LIKED what I was eating. "Maybe I'm....no, just stressed out, yup, It'll pass," After another five days of eating like a HIPO trapped in McDonalds, I took my monthly pregnancy test (I have kept the folks at First Response in business). One line, not two, I put down the stick and went to tell my mother I was not pregnant. I was disappointed and nonchalantly swayed back to the bathroom where the test laid face-down. I picked it up, turned it over, just to make sure. GASP!! Those little lines on that pee strip suddenly made me feel like the luckiest, happiest, most fortunate person in the world! THRILLING!
I've had the usual issues with pregnancy: moodiness, tiredness, nausea--nothing crazy. People ask me "How are you feeling?" And I respond, "I'm feeling terrible but I'm soooo happy!!" HA! Luckily for me and future baby, I've lost my taste for fast food binges. AND for the FIRST time in my life I cannot stand sweets!! Just the thought of digging into a chocolate mousse cake makes me want to gag. I've wanted salt and protein. BUT I put brown sugar on my tuna sandwich and that was GOOD. I also have a strange aversion to drinking water. I have to choke it down to keep my kidneys healthy (I developed a stone during my first pregnancy). Also, the only food that makes my stomach feel better is Starchy, Whitey, Bready, Bread--bagels, Ritz crackers all the good things that you're never supposed to eat.
Weight gain doesn't worry me too much, I'm just really happy I lost a few pounds BEFORE I became pregnant--I'll know what to do after baby comes, and most importantly I'll know I CAN DO IT. So bring on the bagels and salt meat, however, if someone would like to write a book about managing hunger and cravings during pregnancy, I would happily read it.